Everything about science is and will always be my favorite. Physics, Chemistry, Biology, and Earth Science are the 4 main branches of my favorite subject. In quarter 1, today, our science lesson revolves around Mariana’s Trench. This trench is the deepest part of the crust. No light, high pressure, and not all can stand it. But I don’t believe that Challenger Deep is the lowest part of the ocean, nor the deepest part of the Earth’s crust, just like any, there is deeper than the eyes can see, something that the mind can’t understand, and something that the senses can’t feel. Mariana’s Trench can be 10, 971 meters deep, but there’s something deeper than that, people, just like me.
I am smart, loud, selfless, corny, and optimistic according to some. Many may say that I am an athletic and sporty student since I am a part of the Vigan Sports Delegation for 5 years. But if I am to ask myself the question “who am I?”, the answer will always be "I don’t know". I always tend to expect myself to be better, to be someone I am not, to be someone I don’t want to be, and to be someone that I can’t be. Even though being “me” is against my will, I always believe that needs are always the priority. I need to be smarter, I need to be on top, I need to be better. But what about my wants? Yes, at this point of my blog, you will realize that I am selfish, I’m not the “selfless Braeden”, I always wanted to prioritize myself over anyone else. I am also a coward, I always try to escape my fears instead of facing them. I don’t know what the future has prepared for me and that is the thing that I am really scared of. Just like the deepest trench, I go through high pressure, not from my parents, but from myself. Just like the lowest part of the ocean, I don’t have any light around me. Life is the only existing thing in me.
Researching, testing, and developing methods to fully understand what I am. Everyday discovery of what I want to be, but also everyday realization of what I need to be. As time pass by, I will for sure continue to find things I desire to do. Continuously uncover things and try to bring me peace, because that’s what I need. I will forever wait for me to discover who am I and what I am. But for now, is there something deeper than the Challenger Deep? I don’t know, maybe people, people just like me.
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It's okay if you cannot answer the question of who are you, but always remember that don't be afraid to be yourself because that is better than being in a place or personality that isn't you. Because even though you portray a persona that other people want they will always have negative comments about you which is why being you is okay. Yes, problems and challenges do come and go but don't be afraid to face them because that is how we can learn.
ReplyDeleteYour continuous pursuit of the answer to "who am I?" is, in research terms, cyclical and iterative. And that, is okay. Because a person undergoes change every single second and what is contemporary may not be what it is tomorrow. Do remember that it is okay to not be the one who you need to be, for being who you are is what people have liked you for - despite being you is against your will. Be who you are and not what you need to be, Braeden. :)
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